They made it home.

These past few days have been increasingly stressful. I am beginning to feel the real world set in. Moment to moment, I experience happiness, pain, frustration, and depression. However, there have been people in my life lately that have drastically attempted to help me with this new life change. I appreciate every ounce of courtesy they show me. I may not be the easiest to deal with, nor the most fruitful person to spend time with, but what they take from me, is what I am mustering to give. In this time of extreme stress, these people are my refuge, they are what I cling too, what I hope to be someday.

My life up until lately, has been dissapointing, frightening, and calloused with the unknown. Yet, these new people have entered my life. Congratulations to you souls, with all your personal issues and stresses, you still show me your love, faith, and joy. To me, at this present moment in my life, that means more than anything.

Thank you, and goodnight.

The Respectful Not

As of lately I have become a new person. I am changing in ways that I never thought I would. To experience myself and these new emotions has become something of a gift. Recently I have come to terms with my diabetic disease and I have accepted it. Not but two minutes ago, I was told "We must respect this disease, because it most certainly does not respect us." This little statement holds so much. I was often taught that I should only show respect to someone who shows me respect. However, in actuality, every moment of every day, I must show extreme respect for my body. No longer will it show me any ounce of remorse or respect in return. My actions will dictate the respect it shows me. How I want to be treated is only reflected by how well I treat myself. If I don't take insulin after eating, I will feel the pain and disorientation. If I drink above my limits, I will feel the glucose low, the sweats, and the destruction of my mood.

I am forming a new way of thinking, and today has been a day that has encountered many new realizations and revelations. In fact, I just won a cruise through a survey. However, I couldn't secure 118 dollars to go on the cruise. Oh well, still a good day :)

Hope you all are having a great day as well